This isn’t a “how to” post but a confession post. I’m still comparing every man I meet, date, or talk to to a man that will never like me. A man I will never be with. A man who will never be with me.
It’s obsessive. It’s heartbreaking. It’s sickening. And I’m doing this all to myself through my own thoughts and feelings. Someone touched my life years ago and I have yet to recover.
How is it that the thought of this one person still forces to me rethink men to this day?
I’ve dated very nice men. But they weren’t as sexy as him. They weren’t as strong as him. They handled themselves differently in a situation like I thought he would have. Thought!!!! I don’t even know because i didn’t even spend much time with him or learn much about him. Yet, I’m still affected. I’m so very tired of it.
I’m running through dates, men like a teenager trying to find “the one”. Two dates in one night even. But none compare to him.
Today, I’m mentally making myself stop. This cannot continue. I’m hurting myself and the feelings of plenty of men.
I think it might help to stop looking altogether. This is all too hard when you’re addicted to the thought and feeling of love.
I have yet to write on my thoughts of love addiction. One day I will.